Today I am picking up seeds I scattered through stream of consciousness writing over the past several months. I was like Julie-Appleseed, spreading thoughts and words and images that may have appeared like a disorganized pile of word-goo and yet now I see several threads of significance that invite continued dialogue.
The key is I simply sat at the notebook or keyboard and in those moments I allowed the words to find their place without concerning myself about the fit or the content or what I would eventually "do" with them, I simply caught them as my heart-mind downloaded them.
What is your method for catching such thoughts?
Perhaps this concept feels to frightening or unwieldy right now?
I invite you to read what I wrote about knee-knocking, quaking, over-the-top "I really don't want to do this!" fear and doing it anyway.
I wrote this "stream of consciousness" style. I set my timer to five minutes and then just let my fingers fly across the keyboard. What you see below is unedited, fresh off the top of my thoughts words.
It must’ve been in 1999 - the last millennium - that I first heard the formula “Insight + Action = Growth and Development.” It was a life coaching equation, one I played with and lived and taught and still use.
This morning during a teleseminar I wrote these words,
“Our friend Uncomfortable is an invitation, a celebration, a doorway to where we want to go. Uncomfortable is a good sign. Thank it - and open to it… discomfort = good. Knees knocking = dancing.”
I use the phrase “knees knocking” as a metaphor for “I am really scared to do whatever it is I want to do but don’t want to do and wow, look my knees are knocking let me focus now on the knocking knees rather than what I really want to do and if I do that long enough, I’ll forget the yearning and eventually feel much safer mowing the lawn in the status quo.
My insight, my stream-of-consciousness tapped me on the shoulder to say, “Hey, Julie, did you ever consider when your knees are knocking they are actually dancing?”
When my knees knock, they are dancing. They are enjoying the moment. They are out there on the dance floor not even concerned that they are the first ones out there or the last ones out there are smooshed by countless other better knee-dancers.
They are just out there, celebrating where they are and allowing themselves to knock-dance their way to whatever is calling them.
Turns out my knees - and my subconscious mind - and processing what shows up - all of it - is much smarter than the me who allows herself to get sidetracked by what I make my knocking knees mean.
Knees knocking usually mean I’m afraid of whatever I just bumped up against.
Some people might say “your knocking knees mean run away, fast!” That might be easier, but I won’t move forward that way.
I would prefer to see it this way: knocking knees” + conscious intention = dancing my way into wherever I am meant to - and want to, and divinity is calling me - to go.
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Julie Jordan Scott inspires people to experience artistic rebirth via her programs, playshops, books, performances and simply being herself out in the world. She is a writer, creative life coach, speaker, performance poet, Mommy-extraordinaire and mixed-media artist whose Writing Camps and Writing Playgrounds permanently transform people's creative lives. Watch for the announcement of new programs coming in Spring, 2015 and beyond.
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