This is simple yet not so simple to answer.
The thing is, I don’t want to be trite and shrug this issue off my shoulders like my navy blue sweater leaves my shoulders once Spring arrives. This is one of those niggling areas of belief I need to take a sledge hammer to rather than let it bully me anymore.
That’s it: my barrier to my dreams is a belief “There isn’t time and there isn’t money for me to reach my dreams, so why bother when it will never work out?” If that were true, how do those scrappers who were in the face of ruin managed to rise up and take the world by storm?
Perhaps that is part of it: there is no metaphorical gun to my back.
Perhaps it would be wise to create one today. Something like, “Your daughter can not go to college unless you are able to fund it on your own.” This actually isn’t far from the truth. My eldest daughter is at Smith College, a very prestigious seven sister’s college. Several weeks ago she visited Princeton, which is where she wants to go to graduate school because they have the not only the top Presbyterian Seminary in the country, they also have the second largest theological library in the world. The Vatican’s library is apparently larger.
This leaves my second daughter’s education to be concerned about when my eldest is going into her second year at Princeton.
Can you even imagine the financial opposite of windfall that will create?
What has worked for me when I was the most successful in the past is to create a game of some sort – a personal challenge – and then to go for it with all my might. I am looking at an adorable photo of my daughter right now as I type. She is looking back at me as if to say, “I believe in you, Mommy.”
She has risen above the bullies of her past. It’s time for Mommy to do so, too. I notice my shoulders aren't up around my ears anymore. Just writing those words seems to be have started the process of releasing the Belief Bullies.
Now, to create the game that will send them completely underground. Come back again to see what happens next so that you may toss your Belief Bullies out of your world.
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