It started with a strange tickle that lived in the back of my throat and slowly crawled toward my belly.
It happened last Sunday when I had the not-so-sudden realization I miss the stage. I miss performance. I miss creating collaborative performance art.
This time, though, there is nothing I can do about it except wait.
I am on the Disabled List: the DL.
No theater for me until my scar turns into at least slightly more easily masked by make-up.
Now, before you “Pshaw” my thoughts – as I know some of you will – recognize I am respecting the audiences first and foremost. After all, I am the audience member who hears two people telling wildly divergent stories both using the same metaphor within thirty minutes and it gets under my nostrils in the most annoyingly itchy way.
I don’t want audience members to be distracted by the “is that meant to be there?” or “does she have a smudge on her face?” or “did she have some sort of facial surgery she doesn’t want us to see?” to distract from the storytelling.
My job now is to wait and to do the best I can to enjoy the
waiting.
As my internal longing gets louder I know it might make it more difficult to attend theater events. I haven’t seen a show since before surgery and I have attended one post-surgery “theater people gathering.”
I have actually committed to do some storytelling soon although I don’t know the exact date.
This is a step in the right direction: low key commitment,
not much time investment,
and even though I have written some intense pieces in
preparation, I know I can pull it off. I know I can pull it off well.
It is like I have told actors and directors before: because I never know when my last time on stage will be, my intention is always to do the best I am able to do each time I am out there and revel in the experience, no matter what it brings.
For now, I’m benched.
It is up to me to be sure I make that the exact place I want to be. For right now.
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© 2012 by Julie Jordan Scott
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield. She leads Writing Camp with JJS & this Summer will be traveling throughout the US to bring this unique, fun filled creative experience to the people wherever she finds the passion & the interest.
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