I sat at my computer this morning at first feeling very inspired and then my inspiration immediately dropped when I haphazardly poked around google and blahdy blah nothing very interesting and wasted a good hour of my prime time for creativity. Seriously! What was I thinking or obviously I had shut down into the NOT thinking mode.
I started to do some research, then, on online courses where I could get my master’s degree. I am a ridiculously good teacher and I am absolutely wasting my talent, which is very selfish of me.
Especially when I think about the biopsy I had yesterday.
I won’t know for a week if I have skin cancer or not, but I do know that I absolutely will not let my fear or worry get in the way of anymore good things in my life. It is as if this… on my paperwork they had a name for it I didn’t recognize – neoplasm this dark pink growing polka dot on my skin has now become my biggest cheerleader, my biggest “get off your ass and get yourself out there more!” chant.
I posted on twitter yesterday that my circular band aid looks like it is winking at me, cheering me on.
I looked into the mirror just now and smiled and winked back: I accept that dare, face. I accept that dare, spirit. I accept that dare, beloved children of mine.
It feels so much better than worrying incessantly!
My mantra today is “I absolutely will not let fear or anxiety or not knowing the future stop me from accepting this dare to get my heart back to racing with glee, with productivity and with that passionate stamp that says, I am the passionate, the one and only Julie Jordan Scott and my job is so far from done so ever step must be for now and tomorrow’s now. I accept the dare.”
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield.
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