Today's prompt brought a surprising result. My habit is to read the prompt and then walk away for a few hours. If I don't get something in a couple hours, I open myself up some more by just being curious with the question itself. Usually if I am being resistant it is because there is something there I don't care to admit to myself or to the Blogosphere either, for that matter. Well? Here I go again, making my weekly SOCSunday Confession.
Today’s (Optional) Writing Prompt:
What are the things in your life right now that you just don’t want to do?
What do I not want to do?
I no longer want to role over for someone else’s desires… this includes my children.
My normal M.O. has always been, “My children want to do X, I shift to do X rather than what I would like to do.”
Or my children want to go to Y so we go to Y rather than where I would like to go.
My children want to eat… so I eat.
My children want to wear… so they wear what the plead me to buy for them.
My children want to attend this college so I sacrifice to make it happen.
Until now, I have felt incredibly guilty about it as well.
Tomorrow we are driving to the Bay Area, until Thursday. Well, we had talked about leaving today but my daughter’s friend is going as well and her mother thought we weren’t leaving until tomorrow. I shifted around my thought process to leave very early tomorrow morning.
Well, my daughter got upset that we weren’t leaving today.
I almost wrote to my friend to see if we could move faster and leave today but then I thought, “No. Not doing this leaving on Sunday thing means we won’t be rushing. I will have time to get some things accomplished I want to accomplish. The car can be packed up this evening and we can leave at 7 amish when the kids are still sleepy and arrive in Oakland by Noon. This plan works.
I like this plan.
I like the idea of not rushing because I don’t want to rush so much anymore.
It is Spring cleaning time and I am in a “less is more” frame of mind.
We can still go into the city on Monday and Wednesday. We can still do the Berkeley exploration on Tuesday. If I am smart, I can even fit in the poetic park I’ve wanted to visit for months AND we can still visit with friends in the East Bay on Wednesday night.
I don’t want to cater to everyone else’s whim this time.
Or any time. I will bend, I will see how we may both win, but I do not want and I will not break my ideas and scatter them into easily buried pieces.
What a great realization.
Thank you, dear SOC Sunday friends. That feels so good!
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
- Link up your post at AllThingsFadra.com
- Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.
Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield. She teaches a teleclass/ecourse "Discover the Power of Writing & Telling Engaging, Enlightening Stories" which begins again April 19, 2012. Find details by clicking this link.
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