This week my friend Jamie Ridler tapped me on the virtual shoulder, looked me in the eye and said, "Julie - What do you wish to transform?"
I respect Jamie so much, I must respond. I hope you will, too.
A week ago I was playing with a word to synopsize this year and a word that seems to be asking to be claimed as THE word for me for 2011 as a part of Reverb10. (A brief aside, I gave a headnod to y'all in my Reverb10 post about community yesterday, by the way.)
I chose a word in the beginning of 2010 - "Tangible Soul" and while this is true, as I look over my shoulder at 2010 I see now more of the word "Momentum" and I see 2011 swooping up to grab me and spin around on the floor in a whirling dance of "Abondanza".. abundance with a smattering of molta bella Italian. Heaven forbid I do anything in an ordinary way, right?
What I wish to transform is right there, amidst that preface.
I want to transform the way I seem to need to apologize for things: like my doing things in a unique, Julie-esque way. Yeah, I do things in one-of-a-kind ways. I am always encouraging people to do that - so shall I say the same to myself.
Continue to be 1,000% PLUS myself and stop feeling compelled to apologize, as if I am looking up the long legs of my elder brother, shaking his nose at me, embarrassed that I tarnish the family tradition of being staid and inexpressive.
The reality is, this way is better for me. Maybe tradition works for him. This works for me: unapologetically, unabashedly.
And on the way to this transformation, I want to continue to work on my relationship with both Abondanza in the usual, green energy way as well as Abondanza with my body. I would like a bit less Abondanza there ---> just to be healthier, not because I am unhappy with how I look. I look how I look and I think I have come to terms with the fact that I am actually rather attractive to some people. Surprisingly many people. And to those people who think I am not attractive, I am transforming that need to apologize for your tastes which don't include me.
Mostly I want to be comfortable in as many yoga poses as possible. I would like to take up running. Less of me and tighter, more sleek me will help with that.
And the momentum of the end of this year will most certainly impact the abondanza in the 2011.
How exciting is that?!
Very!
So this is me and my wish for transformation.
What do you wish to transform? I would love to wish along with you!
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