It has been a while since I have successfully completed a Full Moon Dream Board a la Jamie Ridler and the Jamie Ridler Studios. I was delighted to know school would have started by the time this full moon came along so I started early and trusted my time would not evaporate and I wouldn't be traveling when it came time to complete my Dream Board.
I collected my
images starting on the day of the New Moon. I felt called to the Delaware river
and then to light houses and I was dwelling a lot in memory and casting into
the future and the present without any specific direction except for "What appealed to me."
My children,
memories, my life – my hope, my future.
I asked, “How will I shine?” and I looked at the lighthouse: the one that compelled me most was actually at the mouth of the Delaware River, the river I visited the most as a child. I didn’t even know there was a lighthouse there.
I was surprised to
discover my favorite image of it was one where it was flooded, where the solid
ground leading the shining light was “obstructed” by water. I wondered
momentarily how the light keeper was able to make way to tend the light when
this happened. I let the inquiry go and continued my full moon query without
“the answers” and it came to me.
As odd as this may sound, my dream for now for this precise moment in time is
to stay comfortable in this space of unknowing I am inhabiting right now. I am
releasing the need to know anything so that I may receive whatever goodness and
glory and aches and reality is out there and in here – in HERE, my spirit and
my soul, as well.
(The image of "me" isn't stuck to the page, she has a back side, also, of a poem that I can not read because of the symbols of the font. This felt important, too, that the understanding goes beyond language.)
Embracing the
confusing, as is the poetry written with an unintelligible font. That is one of
my poems and I don’t even remember, when looking at my own words in the middle
of my own art what I meant to say…. And in making this dream board, I am
growing in comfort with that very real, very poignant frame of mind.
I was writing and
meditating on my dream board and the sun came out at this moment and it was so
cool, it was like having a bath-of-light. To look into it with any expectation
of it “giving me anything” but this light bath would hurt my eyes and I felt so
sure this was another metaphor for me to get.
I smudged purple
paint on one of my images and now, to me – the angel is unmistakeable in the
paint. I am to be comfortable in this confused place and allow divinity to
guide me. I am to listen, to act, to relax, to release and receive.
Absolutely just
right.
I am so grateful.
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