Today
in 3WW (Three Word Wednesday) I wrote in my usual genre: lifewriting. I have been aching and feeling
exceptionally vulnerable since we started working on the film/play HamletMachine
earlier this week. Here’s the thing with acting – for me, it isn’t
pretending as much as it is to allowing my history to merge with the character’s
story, so it is visceral and deep at moments as this one.
Thankfully
since I am working on the film portion of the production, once we shoot this
scene, I don’t have to do it over and over again. Last night Michelle, the
assistant director said, “How did that feel?” and I responded, “It felt like
$&@+!… and I know that is exactly how it is supposed to feel if it is going
to work.”
Without
any more rambling, here I go being vulnerable again.
The words I am to weave into my writing, which is at the heart of Three Word Wednesday:
Modify – Obedient - Veil
I
wasn’t expecting each moment of eye contact to feel like another blistering
slap across my face. I averted my eyes, looked down, modified what I was doing
so the pain wouldn’t be so transparent.
I
know this was supposedly acting, but somehow in a microsecond, the veil between
acting and reality tore and I felt exposed, an old version of myself, stunned
and shamed into being obedient, into being whatever he wanted me to be rather
than being myself.
I wasn’t expecting each moment of eye contact to feel like another blistering slap across my face.
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