It was a hot day in August, 2003 that I experienced
my first moment of transcendence through
acting.
I remember Hal didn't remember my name -
we had only been in classes a couple weeks.
He pointed to me and said, "You, sit down,
take a break."
I was shaking, wiping the tears away from
my eyes and more than a bit disoriented.
What was THAT?
I took the same question to bed that night
and have been living it ever since.
I was delighted to thumb through one of my
morning pages notebooks recently and
find this entry from "The Morning After".
The tone is quintessentially-morning-pages-
stream-of-consciousness-raw. So truthful
as it rises to its extraordinary and life
affirming conclusion.... read on.
Morning Pages Flashback:
August 12, 2003
When I looked at myself last night I saw such
intensity and range and it was funny and exhilarating
and I just lost myself and I felt special, unique like
Whoa, is that really me? and Yes. It is.
Don't grieve over lost time and just be grateful
and be in the moment and allow that presence to
spill through all and something is happening.
It is scary. Like unleashing this side of me and
it had me removed and a bit separated and not
altogether here me you there two sisters and a
daughter or something hard to think of something
and it is wonderful oddoddoddoddoddoddoddoddoddd
and wonderful wonderful wonderful wonderful I go
so into it that I kinda fell apart and at the same
time it was like falling together and maybe people
fall apart because they don't have the awareness to
fall together.
It is strange, isn't it?
That idea of falling together and awe-ing myself.
Its like I was outside myself and watching me and
now I have moved inside.
It was the most amazing feeling and I am amazed
perplexed that right now it is incapturable. (Not
able to capture.)
It felt soooo sooooo sooooo right here... *heart*
I mean right here *body* and right here *spiritually
connected*,
The Me really shone through. Hot damn, it will really
dramatically improve my singing.
I want to audition.
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Julie Jordan Scott is now appearing in her tenth show since she had this amazing experience. She said she wanted to audition and auditioning, yes - she has done. Right now you can see her in "IT Runs in the Family" at Stars Theatre and Restaurant until May 14, 2005 or visit her website, 5passions.com to "keep in touch" off the boards.
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