Julie Unplugged

Today, April 15, 2005 I am Grateful For....

to be awake and REALLY awake for my very early
morning calls.....

to have accepted the position of PRODUCER of
Peter Pan.... bring it ON! another growth opportunity.
(I am realizing this is why I turned down the Assistant
Directing opportunity!)

for my pens, notebook and daily writing practice.
Morning pages rock!

for practice last night, specifically the line through
and chanting at home "I know my lines, I know my
lines, I know my lines."

really "getting" my character so much and at a
different level - and "getting" the words she is
saying even more.... emotionally, relationally,
etc etc etc and the laughter when Ken
changed his last line in the show from "Rosemary"
to "You sl^t!" now that is something I have
never been called - and it wasn't a BAD thing,
no negative charge - it was amusing!! Good!!

illuminating and shifting "I can'ts" to "Yes, let's
do!"

Friday movie day with my girls

the incredible folks who are continuing
to show up in the Passionate Prosperity program

my willingness to grow

the energy coursing through my veins

myself - I rock, I rock, I rock!

NOW: How about you? What are YOU grateful for today?

Click COMMENT and share your gifts with the planet!

Can Life Get Any Better? Yes, Yes, Yes!

The Passionate Prosperity Program is in full swing, four days into it now and it continues to absolutely astound me with its glorious energy. 

I keep asking “Can Life Get Any Better?” and its as if I am asking for God to just show me more, every time I ask that the answer seems to come in, loud and clear – YES YES YES!

Hey, I’ll take it!

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Today, April 12 and 1/2 I am grateful for.....

It actually took me 36 hours to post this *laughter*

Emma’s soulful rendition of “Tomorrow” – Crosby’s
teasing – and the instantaneous and unanimous
thunderous applause at her finishing,
flourishing moment.

The kick off of 42 Days of Passionate Prosperity – round
4 with a really amazing energy and amazing financial
miracle$ ringing through the group already.

Feeling completely wiped out at the end of the
day – a good wiped out

The fact that my skin feels wind burned and oddly,
that mark of accomplishment is a good thing.

Meeting a whole bunch of new, local people at
the shoot today – many who I have “known”
through their work and never “officially”
met until today.

Listening to “Songs for a New World” as I type – and
remembering my own development as an
Actor and Singer.

Talking to people at the shoot about my work – and
getting a lot of affirmation about the coolness
of what I do.

One-on-one time with Katherine during the shoot

Running “It Runs in the Family” lines during the
rides home and on the plane with Marissa and
showing up, albeit VERY late to rehearsal – but
being true to my word really felt very,
very, very good.

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This picture was taken when I was looking at some incredible clouds and expressing gratitude for the moment - and my photographer went "click" and I really like what he captured!

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Wisdom from Where?

“When your heart is in your dreams, no request is too extreme”

Jiminy Cricket

Since when have I been taking the Wisdom of a Sage who has antennae?

Since the same time when I accept the wisdom of anyone – when it holds truth and inspires me into movement.

Who decided that “credentials” make the Wisdom – or the Value – of the person sharing the bounty, the truth, the inspiration?

Hearts filled with dreams propel you to your greatness.  The presence of your dreams in your blood stream invokes courage, invites confidence and inspires a deeper commitment every time.

Don’t get stuck in intellectual meanderings which say things like, “You listen to THAT person?”

Instead, stand in the wisdom of your heart.

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Julie Jordan Scott is a lover of the pulse of the moment.

She invites you to visit her website, 5passions.com, to learn

about the many current and upcoming programs which

will invoke your passion right now, in the pulse of THIS moment.

WOWza Energy today!

I am almost completely wiped out tonight
AND it has been such a tremendous day!

The 4th Experience of 42 Days of
Passionate Prosperity started today.

WOW!

And then there was the "Six Seconds from
Disaster" shoot in Mojave where Katherine,
Emma and I were all extras.

How fun is that!  (Very!)

Sometimes as a Leader of Programs like the
42 Days of Passionate Prosperity I think, "Should
I mention all the tremendous experiences
I have as a result, too?" and I think the answer
needs to be YES!

It is as if the study of Expansion from last week's
Pre-Sessions really rubbed off on my life. Now it
is time for me to really invoke it in some other
areas where it isn't as present.

Perhaps that is MY intent for this time around?

Ah, well. I am so glad you are all here reading.

You are such a blessing to me.

With Much Love and Gratitude,

Julie

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What are YOU Grateful for - April 11, 2005

I am grateful I got so much accomplished

this morning before 7 AM

I am grateful for my morning pages routine,

alarm clocks and coffee makers

I am grateful for sleeping dreams which

remind me of processing work I may have

been avoiding and giving me the courage

to keep moving forward.

I am grateful for forgiveness of myself

and others

I am grateful I am willing to open my

arms to people’s tears as well as laughter

I am grateful for Emma’s personality –

every aspect of it

I am grateful for my books, my pencils

I am grateful for the used books I have

found this week

I am grateful for all the friendly meals I have

shared this week with my friends – a long time

wish coming true with quite a high

level of ferocity and intent

I am grateful to know my CAVA meeting

of the quarter will be over today

I am grateful for purple and bright pink

I am grateful for all the folks who

participate in my programs

I am grateful for forward movement

I am grateful for puzzle pieces clicking

into place when I tune into the divine

I am grateful to read of other’s gratitude………..

I am grateful for YOU!

Now, what are YOU grateful for today?

Click COMMENTS and list those Gratitude

Thoughts – and add to the Increase:

With Passionate Gratitude,

Julie

It Feels Good

Today I wrote my belated morning pages (call them early afternoon pages) on the bluffs, but further East than usual.

I felt the tension rising in me as I built up steam:

I had been on somewhat of a roll, writing about Rosemary Mortimore and what was going through her/my brain as the play opens, etc – having a recently decent run through my pages and then Rosemary started ranting about David:

“Ok, so I needed some change for the parking meter, for God’s sake, why can’t David even have the change I need?! I always need other men to rescue him for me and I hate that. Even young Dr. Connolly has it more together than David… how annoying is this?”

I looked up from my scribbling because I heard the sound of swoosh, swoosh, swoosh – a walkers exercise pants. A young woman with a lovely, curvy body was walking by with her ponytail, perfectly highlighted, bouncing in the breeze making perfect time with her nicely curved bottom.

My writing shifted:

“Her hair is bouncy, she is trim. I feel fat and ugly with stupid hair I keep trying to grow out note TRYING without success and then I can’t read what I wrote until the large block letters that said FEEL IT!”

Then I leaped up from the bench and threw the notebook on the floor and stomped on it.

I could feel my breath pushing its way into my chest, aggressively pounding into my longs.

”FEEL IT! Feel IT! FEEL it!” cried my breath.

I continued to pant, not unlike my dog.  I looked up towards the horizon, noting how the sun was lighting the landscape so beautifully, so gently, so perfectly.

“This would be a great scene” my internal narrator intoned.

I shook my head and laughed lightly, no longer panting, no longer feeling such animosity towards myself.

I turned the page and sat back down, writing, “I just kicked my notebook like some kind of looney tune. What is up with that?

Kick-Kick-Kick.

Positive movement aligns energy with light.

I hear voices, moving up and around me. I am lucky, sitting here, breathing the sun through my pores, moving my pencil across the page.

It feels good.”

Just like that, I worked through the angst onto the other side.

I was right.

It does feel good.

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  Julie Jordan Scott is a Writer, Poet, Life

and Creativity Coach and loves to live in

the pulse of the moment, whether that means

stomping on her morning pages notebook

or giving an intense hug or singing a song

out of the blue for an audience of one.

Visit her website now: 5passions.com

I felt your hand on the small of my back

I felt your hand on the small of my back

It left a feeling impression that broke through

My sleep and shook me back to consciousness

Tonight, the echoes of your palm print

Bring tears to my eyes because

Nothing has changed so it doesn’t matter that

I felt your hand on the small of my back

It left a feeling impression that broke through

My sleep and shook me back to consciousness

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Publishing raw poetry like this is challenging to say the least - and yet, I feel it is important - to put the unedited, deeply felt words "out there" for others to read and feel and connect to so that we remember we are all connected, we are never, ever alone.

There is a Quickening of the Soul - a Poem

There is a quickening of the soul

That calls you to action – “Yes, it’s right!”

Open to its pull, with no need to feel control

Accept the truth of your power, your might

Breathe in – shout with glorious delight

Feel the wonder and flowing, accept this role

You, purely you - leaves all traces of fright.

Stepping into the pulse of passion your only goal

There is a quickening of the soul.

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Julie Jordan Scott is a Poet, a Mother, a Lover-of-Life.

Her website, 5passions.com, was created in order to

bring the light of passion and the energy of gratitude,

abundance and creativity to all who visit.

Watch for her upcoming memoir, "Confessions of a

Middle Aged Ingenue."

Oscar the Grouch or Cherished Presence?

I have been thinking all day I was just about
to sprout green fur and take up residence in
a trash can on Sesame Street. Yes, I feel
a bit like soul sister of Oscar the Grouch.

I don’t like feeling this way. I have been
getting on my nerves so much I don’t
know whether I am coming, going
to just treading water.

I know – it is highly out of character
for someone so relentlessly optimistic
and open.

And then I remembered the date, and
remembered it is the anniversary of Tom’s
death – and then I remembered I need to
remember to cut myself slack like I do for
everyone else – and then I felt better.

The “bright sunshiney” side of me says,
“Oh, c’mon Julie – make today great in
Tom’s memory. Honor Tom by being
your usual self.”

The still-grieving side of me responds,
“What is usual about a 39-year-old man
dying?” or even clearer still “What is usual
about my beloved friend dying when
there was still so much of a life
left for him to live?”

I wrote a poem for Tom a while ago. I
performed it at “Les Femmes Artistes”
at Spotlight Theatre in January and I
will be performing it again at the Variety
Show at First Presbyterian Church in May.

I thought Tom would like it if I remembered
him here, again, through those very
heartfelt words.

Before I do that, though – do me a big favor
and tell your friends and SHOW your friends
how much you love them right now.

Write them a poem while they are alive. 

Give them heart-to-heart hugs now.

Make an effort to visit your far-away friends.

Now, Tom’s Poem -

Tom, would you please get out of my face today?
Wait, I don’t mean it.
Come back, don’t leave me.
Don’t leave me.

First you sat down with us at Stuart Anderson’s
I heard myself order a Greyhound, how odd
How satisfying as it tickled my throat
I felt warmth in my neck and my shoulders
I realized the tension had left me as I
Relaxed and I knew, then, you were easing my tension

But throwing in that Crosby, Stills and Nash song
Now that was pure poetry
Hadn’t heard it in forever and a day and it was
So much a song of ours and Our House Which Never Was
Like the Rest of Your Life Which Never Was

Tom, would you please get out of my face today?
Wait, I don’t mean it.
Come back, don’t leave me.
Don’t leave me.

Then you decided to join me on stage
“Make my illness the Giant tonight and
See what happens… c’mon, Julie, do it!”

You whispered, I shrieked:
You evil beast, Cancer – you killed my FRIEND
You can NOT have my son –  Ohhhhhhh
I HATE YOU!

Tom, would you please get out of my face today?
Wait, I don’t mean it.
Come back, don’t leave me
Don’t leave me

“Brave, now, Brave – you have it in you.”
You whispered as I heaved breath
I waited in the wings, filled myself with you
“You have my hair color now, silly.
Brave, steady, hold it hold it hold it
As I died onstage yet another time
I felt the life dripping out of my feet
And I felt your hands stroking my face
Whispering in my ears……
“You got it you got it you got it”

Tom, would you please get out of my face today?
Wait, I don’t mean it.
Come back, don’t leave me.
Don’t leave me.

Don’t
Leave
Me

The best way you can “not leave” is to stay
completely with your friends in the moments
you are together. Stay present to your
relationship – your love. Enjoy the moments
when your friends get in your face and the
moments when they are shy and hold back
and the moments in sacred silence and
the moments that feel like the energy is
bubbling up so much excitement
you are together, floating.

Cherish the presence of those whose lives
intersect with yours.
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Julie Jordan Scott is a Life Coach, Writer,
Actor, Spiritual and Creative Healer. Join
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Beginning the Journey together, April 11, 2005