Today I rushed to catch the sunset at a just right spot. I had only moments to get myself, my chair, my notebook, my phone to document it all - naturally - and my pen into place.
I sat down and started to write something which would be absolutely brilliant I was sure and then…. my pen ran out of ink.
I laughed. Not at first, but then, I laughed. I did my misadventures in anxiety exercises and breathed a little bit more deeply and the laughter gurgled up, like when you put drano down a clogged pipe and after a while everything starts slowly moving again?
When my phone fell, I didn’t shout an expletive.
I didn’t race down to chase it.
I was so tired I just looked it at, retrieved it and confidently typed some letters and it worked, perfectly. No worse than it had been before.
I said a short prayer of thanksgiving for the protective cover and a nod to God for making me buy said protective cover and figured this is how life sometimes is.
Things look bleak. Things look downright bad. I can either freak out or I can assess the situation, express gratitude and move along.
That’s what my phone taught my today.
That’s what my silly non-writing-the-sunset moment taught me today.
That’s what letting go has taught me.
I control nothing except for my attitudes, beliefs and responses to the situations that appear in front of me.
I mess up daily. Sometimes many times a day. And then I try again, even after declaring my never-seeming-to-end-less-than-I-would-like-to-be-status.
I started addressing anxiety earlier this week after living a week of completely out of control worry and fear. I decided to try to love fear and to let go of anxiety.
I’m getting better at both, probably because I am noticing what I am feeling and taking the time to settle into the “What is so” of the moment without trying to make it better or different or fit into what I think it should be.
Here’s the magic formula, if there is such a thing.
#1) Something bad (or you perceive to be bad) happens.
#2) Assess the facts of the situation.
#3) Express gratitude whether the facts are good, bad or neutral.
#4) Move along into something better than anxiety, perhaps even positive. Breathe deeply, perhaps or take a moment to sing a tune or write a sentence or smile for no reason other than your heart isn’t exploding out of your chest and you haven’t thought of hurting yourself for the last twenty minutes.
#5) Agree for this moment you will simply breathe a deep inhale and let it out. That’s your only assignment, your only “hafta do.”
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