A true brain dump via the subconscious mind, I was attempting to write about the value of making mistakes but clearly my inner dialoguing was mismanaging my five minutes.
The result? Rambly goo.... and it is all just fine.
I have too long used the word reluctant when what I meant to say was “natural born.”
My reluctance was borne from wanting to do “it right” which basically means following a recipe or a prescription rather than just discovering how or allowing the instinct to pass into and through me into an outcome for a process I didn’t know how to describe so instead of trying or stepping I tended, instead, to opt out until called in for service and since I had squeezed out any inkling of want the reluctance was pretty darned thick, like a heavy coating of molasses.
Mistakes were not my friend, they weren’t even my frenemy they were to be avoided at all costs, especially with their kin “embarrassment” hanging in the balance between accepted and tossed out, cast adrift, left for dead.
Perhaps my penchant for melodrama has caught the best of me, but I trust you know what I mean when I leverage or choose not to leverage what I am naturally good at for doing nothing.
If you blend into the background, chances are you won’t get yelled out or relentlessly critiqued.
You don’t make mistakes when you don’t do anything.
You can’t be accused of being unique when you blend in with everyone else.
I have wasted too much time accessing the door marked ‘ordinary’ when that was never the space I was meant to inhabit in the first place.
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the guidelines…
Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- Link back to the AllThingsFadra.com post (feel free to use the SOC Sunday graphic).
- Add your post below (be sure to use the permalink to your post, not your blog’s URL; and only NEW posts please).
- Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.
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