I have spent a lot of time being overly anxious in the past year and much of the time my anxiety was connected to worry about my children and their educational experience.
I would like to call a do-over on all the time wasted due to this anxiety. I don't think it effected any of the experience for the better, it just made me feel worse.
I've been working on mindfulness in relationship to my children, since this seems to be the one area of my life that causes me the most anxiety overall. I know their lives are their lives, their path is their path - and what they experience is not because I have failed them as a mother.
I rarely talk about my anxiety and it feels good to actually speak it. I actually feel less anxiety having put it out there. My therapist told me today I looked like I felt better, that my countenance was brighter than in the past. Then I read other people may notice me getting better before I notice me getting better.
Perhaps she is onto something.
This post is a part of my response to prompts for ProjectReverb which I am trying to catch up on as quickly as I possible can!
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