Seriously? I trusted I had simple basal cell carcinoma so when I got the call Wednesday that I had melanoma (what I referred to as the BIG M) I was somewhat upset and discouraged.
I mean, I was beside myself with fear and cried a lot that first night.
Once things were in motion with the diagnosis though, it was on warped speed. An appointment with the surgeon, pre-op work, surgery scheduled for a week from yesterday.
Everyone is so pleasant.
I even named my melanoma. Nora. Nora, my melanoma housemate.
I know, call me crazy.
I have to relax into trusting when it comes to stuff like this. I was afraid to get an EKG today, but I went in and rested myself on the table and thought about love and patience and prayer and sang a bit inside my head and the nurse/tech raved about the beauty of my EKG. It was NORMAL! Which means a lot to someone who has cancer attached to her face.
All of a sudden I am very, very sleepy.
Trusting, to me, is a lot like saying Yes. I agree to this. I know everything will be. Just right. That I have so many friends praying for me and loving me right now, it’s almost unfathomable especially because I felt foolish even seeing the doctor for the pink spot on my face.
Nora and I will be spending our last few days together crafting, writing and perhaps visiting the beach with the children.
We’ll toast to the end of our time together.
I will trust the farewell will be amiable and she will never, ever feel the need to return.
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield.
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