It is Sunday and beloved Jana, who hosts Stream of Consciousness Sunday, asked us all to do something very simple in the world of stream of consciousness writing: just write, freely, dump what has been stomping around your brain asking for attention.
Hop over to the site and join us. It is so much fun!!
Permission to dump my brain? Seriously, Jana?
My thoughts immediately line up like cars in one of those four way freeway exchanges. Rumbling, roarding and not wanting anyone else to get ahead in line.... so since I only have five minutes:
There are these two older guys who apparently meet every morning at McDonald's. Samuel and I have been going there, him for breakfast, me for coffee, because he gets obsessed with any possibility of winning money so he could buy some more video games. Yes, I'm serious and I play along so he learns something of frustration and disappointment without it being anything seriously personal. We Moms with kids on the spectrum do what we need to do, sometimes by complete accident.
Anyway - we sit in the same spot and so do these two older guys who just happen to go to the church where I used to go.
This one guy was talking about the way another church lady gives "full body hugs" and he told how only once did his wife complain when she said, "Do y0u have to hug her that way?" to which he played, not surprisingly, dumb.
"I have dreamed about those hugs," he said, "You could feel every contour...." and though I couldn't see his face, I could hear the longing, dreamy expression on his face. I'm starting to enjoy listening to their conversations and feel only slightly guilty about it.
Another thought, coast is clear!
I have been working on being unconditionally loving. Not long ago I had the unfortunate experience of being cheated on. Now, some people would throw their arms up and storm out of the room. I didn't do this.
Instead I had the strong awareness that my dear one had never had the experience of grace and unconditional love that I could offer, as someone who actually believes in such things. I offered him grace. He gratefully, confusedly, accepted.
It may have been more like six weeks ago - but with my surgery and all, I thought it was shorter.
The timer went off but one last thing: my melanoma surgery was a success. They got the entire tumor off my cheek bone so lately I have been sporting scarves. I never knew how much attention a woman would get for wearing scarves. People look at me, quizically, probably because they are not used to seeing blue eyed women with their heads wrapped this way.
Since I can't smile my usually geeky way, I have been practicing a Mona Lisa smile. One of my friends thinks people will think I was beaten by a man. Remember, though, I am practicing grace. I find it amusing in not a ha-ha way that when I discovered my dear one's straying and stopped yelling deliriously I said, "And I have to add your timing sucks!"
It was discovered, afterall, when I was waiting for my biopsy, waiting to see if it was cancer. I was thinking it was basal cell carcinoma, more common and less serious, but when I learned it was melanoma... wow. Anyway.
My brain dump worked. These were the two "cars" that got through (or actually three) the traffic jam.
Five minutes gone, just like that!
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post (found at Jana's Thinking Place). .
- Link up your you got it now, at Jana's Thinking Place!
- Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield.
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