Wow. You may have noticed if you popped by yesterday, I wrote on the entirely WRONG topic for Five Minute Friday. After such a fun time at the Thursday night party, I missed that, too. I was thinking about other things. Cancer surgery. On me. Something I didn't want to think about, so.... for whatever reason my mushy mind thought the theme was TRUST. Click to read my post on that topic.
CALLING DO-OVER ~ I write now on the topic of FOCUS. (Isn't that ironic?)
Yesterday I wrote on…. Trust… which was the wrong topic but apparently exactly what I needed to write. I introduced the new character in my life I am soon going to be separated from… Nora, my Melanoma.
I finally got my diagnosis – well, a week after the biopsy isn’t bad….and it has thrust be into a different world. Surgery, Thursday. I lost focus when my doctor talked about “then, when I reconstruct your face…”
I started regaining focus when I just took care of business. Yesterday it was pre-op bloodwork, EKG (which I was told was beautiful) and a chest xray. The day I was diagnosed I did my long overdue mammogram.
This morning I focused on sharing my news with friends so not everyone would get the news third hand. That was very emotional for me so after that I decided to focus on word-lessness. I created art. I did dishes. I dyed paper for future projects. I found a photo editor that would do stuff I always wanted to do but never learned how to do it.
I focused on getting stuff done and focusing on beauty and wonder.
I got some ice for a cup of water and said, “I wonder what would happen to this color if I melt ice on it?” So I put some ice on the paper I just died. Maybe nothing will happen. It never hurts to wonder if we direct it in a positive area, along a positive river… instead of taking the fear rapids to “I wonder if they’ll find more cancer, I wonder if they’ll make me look like a freak, I wonder if any of my friends will follow through and help my kids and me like they say they will.”
It is much more productive to focus on those easy “I wonders” like “I wonder if the dye will change” and “I wonder if I can peel this paper apart better when it is dryer?” and “I wonder how gorgeous the paper flowers I am going to make will look?”
I look at my timer. It didn’t ring and I wrote for six minutes.
So, I am a day late and a minute long.
I wonder if these words will make my readers smile and focus on wonder rather than ride those rapids of fear? I hope so… wonder, wonder, wonder. Focus on wonder, wonder wonder.
This is my CORRECT Five Minute Friday post, written on Saturday. Simple to do, awesome to read and greet the other women doing exactly the same thing. Want to try it out? Here are the guidelines:
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link at LisaJoBaker.com and invite others to join in.
3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community..
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield.
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